Helen
13-05-2010, 08:17 PM
have been an emotional rollercoaster.
To start at the beginning. We've been wanting a 2nd miracle since Sept. last year. But had to wait 'till this year because I had Unstable Hips Syndrom (no idea what it's called in English but in dutch it's called Bekken Instabiliteit). You normally suffer from this in different degrees during pregnancy. I got it afterwards :( After a half a year revalidation and starting back at work in June/July. I had to wait and listen to my body.
In Jan. I felt ready. In Feb. we got pregnant, again first time round (like with Kate). Unfortunatly the day after the + test I got a major period. Oh well, we thought, it was sad but better, for it was probably not good.
In March I got pregnant again and stayed pregnant. My tummy grew much faster than it did with Kate along with the sudden very bad nausea and fatigue. The doc prescribed me meds so I could function :worship:
On april 27th we had our intake and 1st echo at the clinic. A few days before hand I had a strange feeling about not getting to see a heartbeat. But I could see no reason for this stressing out because with Kate I had lost blood twice and everything was ok, so why was I nervous now?
With my count I should of been 8weeks and 3 days along.
I climbed up and in went the doc dildo and we saw a nicely filled "nest" everything looked perfect except that we saw no heartbeat and no baby :nea: And I didn't feel it as a suprise and felt bad laying on the bed. But because they/we thought we could see something on the bottom we decided to make an appointment at the gyn's for a 2nd look. We had to wait 2 days.
So I broke down in the car and graduly picked myself up and we had 2 days to prepare ourselves for the worse. And indeed laying on the bed at the Gyn's we could see very clear that my nest was empty. Also we could see that my nest had continued to grow since that tuesday.
Because of my bad nausea and tiredness, and also my huge belly which was starting to draw attention and gossip I/we decided to use the pills to induce labour. I didn't want to wait 2 1/2 weeks for my body to reboot ><
That evening after pushing contractions and laying down I lost the nesting material. But consoled myself with the fact that the baby had been comsumed into my body. It would always be a part of me and it was good that it had stopped growing for the was a reason for it. I was just really mad at my body for being so STUBBORN as my soul :rolleyes:
I went to work the next day which wasn't always easy because of being dizzy and cramps and some people not being very supported as to workwise :nono-1-1:
On Monday I kept getting dizzy and pains the more I worked so I called the Gyn's and had to go home and come in the next day. Another echo was taken and some material had stayed behind. I was to insert the 2nd dose of pills. and come back in a weeks time.
Did this and came back. Another inner echo showed that there was still a little bit left, but because I was only losing little old blood and no cramps the discussed this and thought a curretage (scraping/suction of the uterus) was needed. I did have to draw blood to measure my hCG levels and had to wait 1 cycle adn come back in 6wks for another examination.
In the afternoon I got a call that my levels were too high. I had to come back on friday for another bloodtest and whatever came out of that is to what plan the would make. If it was still too high they thought of an ectopic pregnancy. Which was strange because the gyn and midwife both said that everything was in the right place ? And a scraping was needed. If I started losing fresh blood and/or heavy cramps I had to return before hand.
This morning I felt something run out of me twice and headed for the toilet and to my surprise it was fresh blood! So I got DH (we're having a week vacation to work on and around the house) called the hospital and my mum and dad. Dropped Kate over there and headed for the ER (the gyn was closed for it's a holiday today)
There I was brought to my own room and 4 vials of blood was drawn. My blood pressure was ok.
After 30 min an assistent arrived and said my hB was fine. And the echo showed the same as tuesday. But she didn't think a scraping was needed but we had to wait for the hCG results.
Another 30 min later she returned and was very pleased. My hCG had dropped friom 1100 something to 700 something which was almost halves.
I could go home and the appointment for tomorrow has been replaced to next wednesday for another hCG test and checkup.
For the first time we had some good news. Which is doing me good. Everyone has kept saying over and over how strong I am and that they didn't expect that and they thought I was brave etc etc. I'm suprised as well at myself. But it feels normale to me, to feel like I do.
Yes it hurts inside, my body failed me it seems. And what will round 3 bring? Trying again and then waiting... that will be like h*ll till the 1st echo.
But we won't give up and thanks to many support and loving over the digiscrap world and my friends and fam we pulled through! Also thanks to iNSD:giggle::yesssmileyf: and finally actually winning stuff :rainbowf:
This has become a looooooooooong thread so I'll put a full stop here .
To start at the beginning. We've been wanting a 2nd miracle since Sept. last year. But had to wait 'till this year because I had Unstable Hips Syndrom (no idea what it's called in English but in dutch it's called Bekken Instabiliteit). You normally suffer from this in different degrees during pregnancy. I got it afterwards :( After a half a year revalidation and starting back at work in June/July. I had to wait and listen to my body.
In Jan. I felt ready. In Feb. we got pregnant, again first time round (like with Kate). Unfortunatly the day after the + test I got a major period. Oh well, we thought, it was sad but better, for it was probably not good.
In March I got pregnant again and stayed pregnant. My tummy grew much faster than it did with Kate along with the sudden very bad nausea and fatigue. The doc prescribed me meds so I could function :worship:
On april 27th we had our intake and 1st echo at the clinic. A few days before hand I had a strange feeling about not getting to see a heartbeat. But I could see no reason for this stressing out because with Kate I had lost blood twice and everything was ok, so why was I nervous now?
With my count I should of been 8weeks and 3 days along.
I climbed up and in went the doc dildo and we saw a nicely filled "nest" everything looked perfect except that we saw no heartbeat and no baby :nea: And I didn't feel it as a suprise and felt bad laying on the bed. But because they/we thought we could see something on the bottom we decided to make an appointment at the gyn's for a 2nd look. We had to wait 2 days.
So I broke down in the car and graduly picked myself up and we had 2 days to prepare ourselves for the worse. And indeed laying on the bed at the Gyn's we could see very clear that my nest was empty. Also we could see that my nest had continued to grow since that tuesday.
Because of my bad nausea and tiredness, and also my huge belly which was starting to draw attention and gossip I/we decided to use the pills to induce labour. I didn't want to wait 2 1/2 weeks for my body to reboot ><
That evening after pushing contractions and laying down I lost the nesting material. But consoled myself with the fact that the baby had been comsumed into my body. It would always be a part of me and it was good that it had stopped growing for the was a reason for it. I was just really mad at my body for being so STUBBORN as my soul :rolleyes:
I went to work the next day which wasn't always easy because of being dizzy and cramps and some people not being very supported as to workwise :nono-1-1:
On Monday I kept getting dizzy and pains the more I worked so I called the Gyn's and had to go home and come in the next day. Another echo was taken and some material had stayed behind. I was to insert the 2nd dose of pills. and come back in a weeks time.
Did this and came back. Another inner echo showed that there was still a little bit left, but because I was only losing little old blood and no cramps the discussed this and thought a curretage (scraping/suction of the uterus) was needed. I did have to draw blood to measure my hCG levels and had to wait 1 cycle adn come back in 6wks for another examination.
In the afternoon I got a call that my levels were too high. I had to come back on friday for another bloodtest and whatever came out of that is to what plan the would make. If it was still too high they thought of an ectopic pregnancy. Which was strange because the gyn and midwife both said that everything was in the right place ? And a scraping was needed. If I started losing fresh blood and/or heavy cramps I had to return before hand.
This morning I felt something run out of me twice and headed for the toilet and to my surprise it was fresh blood! So I got DH (we're having a week vacation to work on and around the house) called the hospital and my mum and dad. Dropped Kate over there and headed for the ER (the gyn was closed for it's a holiday today)
There I was brought to my own room and 4 vials of blood was drawn. My blood pressure was ok.
After 30 min an assistent arrived and said my hB was fine. And the echo showed the same as tuesday. But she didn't think a scraping was needed but we had to wait for the hCG results.
Another 30 min later she returned and was very pleased. My hCG had dropped friom 1100 something to 700 something which was almost halves.
I could go home and the appointment for tomorrow has been replaced to next wednesday for another hCG test and checkup.
For the first time we had some good news. Which is doing me good. Everyone has kept saying over and over how strong I am and that they didn't expect that and they thought I was brave etc etc. I'm suprised as well at myself. But it feels normale to me, to feel like I do.
Yes it hurts inside, my body failed me it seems. And what will round 3 bring? Trying again and then waiting... that will be like h*ll till the 1st echo.
But we won't give up and thanks to many support and loving over the digiscrap world and my friends and fam we pulled through! Also thanks to iNSD:giggle::yesssmileyf: and finally actually winning stuff :rainbowf:
This has become a looooooooooong thread so I'll put a full stop here .